拾伍、爬行女
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半年前,妻子过世了。而与她一起被卷入那场交通意外的我经过数月来的疗伤与复健,终於能重回工作岗位。然而,每当突然静下来望着曾经是两人的住处,总觉得突兀又空虚,少了一人份量的不光只有这个房间,我的心中也是。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>8c4OJIUz7e3f9oVEBuRP20HFThiyxwv15gDAnMNS</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>8c4OJIUz7e3f9oVEBuRP20HFThiyxwv15gDAnMNS</blockquote></a>
历经这段日子,我的身T即使痊癒,但JiNg神还是时常处在恍惚状态,身上的伤口彷佛与自己无关,擅自癒合没有留下任何伤疤,内心的苦痛就像处在另一个宇宙,以极其缓慢的时间流动,我也相信只要还在呼x1的一天就不会,自己就不可能完整。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>wJIe9zW3rBO1V8YEkUiQj6KScpA0ybRl</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>wJIe9zW3rBO1V8YEkUiQj6KScpA0ybRl</blockquote></a>
所以我跟大部分人一样,选择埋首工作。我不菸不酒,却也庆幸自己不会,「若妻子还在,肯定不会想看到你这个样子」这句老话虽然老套却很管用,并非我不会选择这种方式遗忘痛苦,不过是单纯个人对健康的坚持。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>ScRa3xsg1qviZ9prtXE6n7FmUKICzuHjb2GVoY8L</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>ScRa3xsg1qviZ9prtXE6n7FmUKICzuHjb2GVoY8L</blockquote></a>
时间领着我逐渐找回过往的状态,思念妻子的情绪依旧存在,但已渐渐不影响我与人的互动跟工作上的专注,即使有时我仍害怕自己因此遗忘过往的枕边人,然而,每当我一回到家,面对硕大又空无一人的空间,仍会庆幸自己没有忘记内心已经丢失的另一半重量。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>vEROQYq4fmdTZ20Xzhx1lu39JVDjFkNtaPM</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>vEROQYq4fmdTZ20Xzhx1lu39JVDjFkNtaPM</blockquote></a>
而「那个」开始出现在我生活中,也大约是在这个时候。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>yNBdU7ajz1WPAHTEDphQVZL04xfXgRMocYw2i6Ke</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>yNBdU7ajz1WPAHTEDphQVZL04xfXgRMocYw2i6Ke</blockquote></a>
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其实大多数人不会去特别留意生活中某种现象,若不是它变动的程度不够剧烈或不够快速,就是根本毫无举足轻重,甚至是发现了,也认为不会影响到自己而不再留意。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>0PCfOyjuiMekD2J5xRB3pQbKcY9GIHrs1gtlAdoU</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>0PCfOyjuiMekD2J5xRB3pQbKcY9GIHrs1gtlAdoU</blockquote></a>
但当那个现象已经是「刻意」来到你面前时,即使仍不会产生影响,又有多少人能忽略呢?<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>t7L6EnfPZcoCjIsv51iKDdQU8NVR4xOuzlq0FwTB</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>t7L6EnfPZcoCjIsv51iKDdQU8NVR4xOuzlq0FwTB</blockquote></a>
不知是从什麽时候开始就有,或者该说我根本就没去在意它存在了多久,当我某天醒来梳洗完毕准备出门时,我才发现它已经擅自闯入了视线内。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>OjyTriFUZqwvRHIeVhSGMuPgW3E2sxJNA0Y6BQzk</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>OjyTriFUZqwvRHIeVhSGMuPgW3E2sxJNA0Y6BQzk</blockquote></a>
内容未完,下一页继续阅读 其实也不是突然出现在眼前,而是在我转身准备走出浴室之前,从眼角发现了它的存在。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>VvwzfGCUeWY1k2tpATM30ySHxJBsPQgmInq8FERi</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>VvwzfGCUeWY1k2tpATM30ySHxJBsPQgmInq8FERi</blockquote></a>
那是一块黑sE人影。没错,我很清楚自己没有看错,在已经早晨天已明亮,我习惯开启的浴室灯光照耀,光线充足情况下,我明白那不是自己影子的反S,也非外头影像的倒映,更没有将壁癌W渍误认rEn影的可能。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>VoRkWhPZrl7fD8ueAiOBvL4YybFTGcIXmps53QCa</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>VoRkWhPZrl7fD8ueAiOBvL4YybFTGcIXmps53QCa</blockquote></a>
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因为它就完全是一个留有长发,不知是男是nV的人影。也不是什麽长期累积的W垢,再根据自己的想像力所构筑出来的形象。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>MopxlK46i72UmBACrf8h1OY93zFLvsZPG</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>MopxlK46i72UmBACrf8h1OY93zFLvsZPG</blockquote></a>
它就像趴在「墙壁里面」正窥视着我的人,不对……它并非站在地面上,而是趴伏攀附在墙角上头一隅,如同T型庞大的蜘蛛,静静俯视在它地盘中的我。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>xjpBuVvFq9EcRUDTblPnLea5ZYwO6NsXzdm8WGk2</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>xjpBuVvFq9EcRUDTblPnLea5ZYwO6NsXzdm8WGk2</blockquote></a>
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如果说这块人影真的是因W垢逐年形成,就算我已亲眼认定不是,但也不能全然否认。就如我前面所提到,如果是缓慢又不起眼,谁会去留意到它的变化呢?更何况是在不起眼的墙角上方。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>9ydMbC4q2oe1E0TJmiaXLW56zBISDHuOGxhpQNw7</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>9ydMbC4q2oe1E0TJmiaXLW56zBISDHuOGxhpQNw7</blockquote></a>
猛然看到这画面的我其实在惊吓过後,就很快收拾自己的心情赶紧上班。说实在话,我也没时间去专研或在意可能掺杂我个人错误认知上的这现象。当然,我也不打算在下班後仔细查看是怎麽回事。如果能够以错觉对自己交代,那刻意去留意也只不过是浪费时间。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>EDwNSeWBZMtg84OxjVl3i9TUkYJ7amqs60nPIfhX</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>EDwNSeWBZMtg84OxjVl3i9TUkYJ7amqs60nPIfhX</blockquote></a>
果不其然,这道像在窥视着我的黑影一直都没有消失,反而是我几天後就淡忘它的存在,就算又突然看到也感到不以为意。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>XNrLY0mHZ8yGkOfUei1Tl92I5tVFMhKEsnvCuD3B</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>XNrLY0mHZ8yGkOfUei1Tl92I5tVFMhKEsnvCuD3B</blockquote></a>
但是,直到最近,我也终於拿起刷子跟清洁剂准备把这块疑虑给清除。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>3NHjG0hcXPuWo2wgkLsOaEdl4p5Tz76UZx1SRbnF</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>3NHjG0hcXPuWo2wgkLsOaEdl4p5Tz76UZx1SRbnF</blockquote></a>
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内容未完,下一页继续阅读 因为,当我洗头、刷牙甚至如厕时,来自後脑杓被注视的感觉已经越来越强烈,那已经不是我想忽视就能得过且过的了。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>Xi4sLhOWlStp7BHUZCTvkQc1MmKEDadn8f3zYb2I</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>Xi4sLhOWlStp7BHUZCTvkQc1MmKEDadn8f3zYb2I</blockquote></a>
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何况,那块黑影在这段期间已经又变得更立T,甚至周遭开始长出类似藤蔓的不知名物T,它们早就离开起初黑影刚成形的范围,往四周扩散开来,就好像浴室角落长出了一颗巨大黑sEr0U瘤般。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>gxkpdm5B9iYIJtaZUL4oH8eXTD0slA2FCyfPMQ1S</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>gxkpdm5B9iYIJtaZUL4oH8eXTD0slA2FCyfPMQ1S</blockquote></a>
更令人感到寒颤的是,这颗人型r0U瘤中间五官也逐步成形。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>gBnNJPEh5uYvwASdHrcWDyUpo7GqzRIi6kste0m3</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>gBnNJPEh5uYvwASdHrcWDyUpo7GqzRIi6kste0m3</blockquote></a>
原本还只是闭着眼睛,一张苍白到毫无血sE的脸孔,在我决定准备工具前一晚,当我再次看到它时,已经是睁开布满血丝又泛h的双眼。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>oAENt95fPCKFliLkj1HOX8eZV7W6Ypgrh0MSsQ4y</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>oAENt95fPCKFliLkj1HOX8eZV7W6Ypgrh0MSsQ4y</blockquote></a>
瞬间,我脑海中闪过一个人的脸,但很快我便否定那个猜想,因为那根本是不可能出现的状况,毕竟他一直都在我身边出现。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>yYRZJ3Ar4w85T67OuVKva0beizdLClfchs2PN9HW</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>yYRZJ3Ar4w85T67OuVKva0beizdLClfchs2PN9HW</blockquote></a>
当然,我也有猜测,莫非是妻子的灵魂还不愿离开这间屋子,什麽JiNg神或意念太过浓烈,才致使这种怪异现象的产生?然而,我相信那张脸绝对不是妻子的脸,更是否定妻子的思念不会以如此丑陋的形态出现,所以在我准备将清洁剂倒在墙上时完全没有犹豫,但突如其来的状况还是使我举起的手僵在半空中,最後甚至放弃了将其清除的念头。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>mtud8JYanbGV1preQLWklAFiZ6RXzwIPhMK</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>mtud8JYanbGV1preQLWklAFiZ6RXzwIPhMK</blockquote></a>
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因为我看到它原本注视着我的眼睛,突然像非出自自身意愿一样,往左上快速转动了一下,即使只有一瞬间,但仍被我看到,然後她的视线重回我身上,却也在我还愣在原地时,就像一开始出现一样,这道攀附在墙上的人影却就这样消失了。<blockquotecite=''''<a href="https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>t6I29azMJlLuykUOKvgw0VoGY7mqxWHpNZ</blockquote>" target="_blank">https:///index''''css=''''cht''''style=''''background:#fff;border-left:5pxsolid#4a84ce;padding:20px50px;''''>t6I29azMJlLuykUOKvgw0VoGY7mqxWHpNZ</blockquote></a>
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